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It’s always a struggle

Yesterday was bad. I wanted to end it all but the best I could do was harm myself.

It always hits hard when you least expect it and even if you try your CBT, it still sometimes does not help.

I’m at the maximum for my current meds, so I have to swap I think. Maybe then the fucked up dreams will stop, maybe then the crippling feeling of hopelessness will go away. Maybe not, but at least I have people to talk to who do understand.

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Born in Sydney in 1975, Angus grew up in the northern suburbs of Sydney and later in the Western Suburbs of Sydney. Over the years he has been a check out operator, charity collection agent for the Muscualr Dystrophy Association, Apple Repair Technician and is a former Director and all rounder type computer and network technician of Little Computer People. He is married to Michelle, who he met on-line back in the good old days of the internet when it was considered a big no-no to have physically met someone you chat to on-line for fear of harm. He has lived in Melbourne for two years, then moved back to Sydney for eleven years, but is once again back in Melbourne. It is nicer than Sydney for artistic purposes and coolness factor. As of now he lives in Pascoe Vale, fixes computers and networks, takes photos of all sorts of things as a hobby and builds lego to help deal with his depression. Capril means even more to him now.

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